Spring-ing into Life


Exams are over, I get to sleep at night, and I can “relax”, or so I thought. There’s been so much pressure about me doing something towards my career of pharmacy now that I’m in pharmacy. I’m still trying to sort it out in my head but I’m not really leaning towards rushing to find a volunteering position or employment at a pharmacy right now. I feel as though it’s going to be what I’m doing for the rest of my life, so why not enjoy some relaxation for now? I honestly don’t know if I am going to become a pharmacist and choose that career path after I graduate anyways. I just feel like I can use this time now to do what I want to do, do something meaningful. For one, I haven’t been back to the senior home since Connie passed away and my heart really goes out to the seniors; I plan on going back to regular visits and volunteering there. Even though my head tells me that it might just break me down once again if another senior that I know there passes away, but my heart stubbornly keeps pulling me in that direction. Having seen how the seniors feel living in a senior home, from my experience with my grandma and also the other seniors I visited, I want to make a difference in their lives there. I want to bring that smile to their face, having someone to talk to when their family is too busy to visit them, to show them that they’re cared for and have a friend. I’d also like to spend more time with my hobbies as they help me relax and there’s so much craft ideas that I want to try out. Haha I know that’s not really “meaningful” but it’s something that could help me relax. I feel like I’ve been under so much pressure under the school year, that I just need a break. But yeah, depending on the workload for my summer courses, I’m considering finding an organization to volunteer at to help the less fortunate. There’s just so much I want to do but don’t know how to do. Anyways, my brain still hasn’t been working properly  yet, still recuperating from the overtime and intense studying I guess… I hope.

In the meantime, I’m just going to relax, watch all the dramas I want, and have some good therapeutic stress-relieving hangouts with my friends. I tend to shut myself off from the rest of the world during exam periods or just most of the time really, so I think I’ll work on that. It’s hard when it takes me so much energy to push away those depressing thoughts, but for the sake of those around me, and my own sake, I’ll try my best. Even though I don’t mind dying any day now, I’m probably still going to live for a while…so I might as well make the most of it! My first step in the change? Doing my nails. Haven’t done that in a while. My random design of dots turned out kind of like a floral design, a bit too bright for my liking, but it matches the beautiful weather outside right now. The cherry blossoms are out and everything is bright and cheery. Even though I don’t feel “bright and cheery”, at least my nails will feel that way? It’s a nice reminder of bright and cheery.

Therapeutic felting

So recently I’ve been under a lot of stress, as always. I’ve just finished a week where I had 3 days of exams for my lab courses for which I was surprisingly calm about. They didn’t turn out so bad. However, I was tired. I would take a naps (not just one!) everyday whenever I could. My mind and body was exhausted from my stressing and staying up late. I needed something to get out the stress from my body. So yesterday, while watching goofy YouTube videos with my mom during lunch, I made yet another “felt thing” or whatever they are called.

Felting. Is. Amazing. For stress release.  End of story. My friends say it’s probably because I have violent tendencies (well I do tend to smack people a lot I guess…but not on their face!) but I believe that it’ll work for even the gentlest person I know. All you need to do for felting is to stab a needle over and over again into a piece of wool felt while shaping it and lo and behold, a creation appears. I don’t think of violent things when I felt. It’s just like running and feeling the stress dissipate into the environment, leaving my body, but without all the sweat and fatigue after. I first found out about felting while watching Bubzbeauty’s YouTube videos. She made felt replicas of her dogs and it was adorable. I did think that felt creations were a bit messy and furry to make something cute out of. That must’ve been a year ago when I first saw it. I never thought much about it until I went to a local Daiso and saw a felting kit for making a bear keychain. So I decided, why not try it? It was only two bucks. I tried it and the next time I went to Daiso, I had to get extra wool felt to make more. Not only is the result adorably cute, (although it’s a bit hard to mold minor details and stab them into place) but oh does it feel good to stab something over and over again to make it into something cute! Below are the “results” of my stress! I’m probably going to end up with a lot more felt creatures/creations before this final exam period is over…

made from a kit

made from a kit

Attempt #1 felting without instructions – success!

Attempt #2 – my funny looking way-too-fat cow

Attempt #3 - my bro's reaction: How much did you buy that for?

Attempt #3 – my bro’s reaction: How much did you buy that for?