Many posts ago, I mentioned a former close friend who I’ve given up on. I reply to her texts and she doesn’t reply to mine, starting anew when “hello??” her phone is an iPhone and I know she can see my reply while shes typing. She invited me to her birthday dinner party. Thankfully, I can’t go due to being out of town that weekend, something me and my family had planned months ago. Anyways, so we kind of started talking again. I say “kind of” because this is the THIRD time she’s asked “How’ve you been?” in three texts in a row! And, just for the record, I’ve replied the two previous times she’s asked, which she did not have any response for. Neither did she respond to my asking of how she herself has been doing. Frankly, I do not want to be her friend anymore. I don’t see her anymore, I don’t talk to her anymore, I don’t think I even KNOW her anymore. I have friends from elementary school who I’ve kept in contact with despite going to different high schools and different universities. That’s because we actually care about each other and talk to each other, asking how they’re doing and taking the time to just catch up with all that’s happened since the last time we talked. At least this friend has stopped saying her empty “I miss you”s! Sigh, I really don’t know what to do. You can’t just talk to them about this kind of stuff… and who knows? Maybe on her side, she may be thinking that I’m being a horrible friend! You never know! It’s just really hard having to put up a front; friendships shouldn’t be like this. I just hope that someday, this will sort itself out, whether we actually hang out like she said we should, or whether we mutually part as acquaintances, etc. I just don’t think I can take it any longer. And I just really hope that I don’t lose it and speak my thoughts! I don’t think that’ll turn out too well.
On the brighter side of my world, I’m LOVING the sunshine!!! It’s been so cold and rainy, and now it’s cold and sunny! Still better than the rain. One of my biggest pet peeves is being cold and wet with the smelly rain. Rain has this stench that just makes bus rides unbearable, especially if they’re an hour long to and from school! Also, speaking of school, I’m getting back on track, doing all the little homework ahead of time, and getting results on midterms that I’m very satisfied with. It’s really been a blessing to see the results of all those late nights and times when I just kept on working despite not wanting to do anything but relax. Sometimes, we just need a glimpse of the sunshine to really believe that the sun is always behind the clouds. We know it, but it’s hard to believe when it’s always cold and wet and gray. Humans have a tough time believing in the unseen, but most of the time, hope comes up just when we need that little bit of thread to hold onto. I know for sure there are times when I’ve been down in the dumps and out comes this random event which makes me smile and remind me that everything is going to be alright. And, I know for certain that everything is going to be alright because when you’re at the lowest lows of your life, you know that it can only get better. Have a great weekend, and look for those special little moments where you can remind yourself, yes, everything is going to be alright! The sun will always rise, that’s a promise!